Harmony Saunders, MD/PhD Student, Class of 2026
The girl in my bag
You are so ugly. Try to hide your face. If you peek out of that bag, everyone will know.
You’re different
Keep a secret. Safe inside this skin. Don’t let anyone know that ugly girl within. Smile as you belong, full of confidence, but hide that ugly girl, the one behind the fence.
The ugly girl you are, that fought your way to be
Pretend it was all handed to you, like the many you see.
Oh ugly girl inside, don’t share the suffering felt
Don’t share the pains of never loved, don’t share the tears you wept
Ugly girl just stay,
Inside the dark brown bag
That way no one will know that inside, you are just sad
You work so hard to fight, since that’s all you’ve ever known
Is how to survive without a father, and a mother who was never home
The ugly girl in the bag, her fate could never be
The one outside who shines, full of accomplishments and ‘feat
And when you feel that pain, that longing that appears
Whenever those around you speak of things you never felt
No mother to call in tears, only one who cries
Pretending she doesn’t need a shot, a joint to ease her demise
A mother full of illness because she never buried her girl
You know, that one – the one, the ugly girl inside
You boil feelings for her, but she never learned as much as you,
How to keep the ugly nice, and tame inside a zoo
Your mother will never be anyone but that one inside a van
That one who cries of pain by singing to a man
The one hides her drug of choice without knowing everyone can see,
She’s just an addict, not someone’s mother of 5 girls in glee
That mother never learned like you, to hide the ugly girl
The one you bury daily, and just smile so no one would ever know
That really you are your mother’s child
Just lost and sad at times
But you learned to hide that ugly girl and keep your pain inside
Your drug of choice was passion
To hide the woes you wept
You chose to hide that ugly girl and funnel her and dreamt
A world that you have made,
Full of those unlike you
You know you’re really different
And the true girl is ugly you.
Med Intima 